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5月15日 OMG Has it been 3 monthsOMG I can't believe it has been 3 months since I have written on here, oh just blame that on that Facebook...ha ha ha....so there is some exciting news to report we sold our house and we bought a house, and so we are moving, the closing date is the 30th of May so we have alot of work to do that is for sure.....and do I feel like doing any of it........of course not.......oh I have to ask why was I born beautiful instead of rich...ha ha ha.......oh well, that is life.......well that is all for now, I will update later have a good one........bye for now 2月19日 Happy 19th Birthday Nicole
19 years old.......OMG I do feel a little old, but just a little 19 years ago today at 11:58pm Nicole came into this world...she was 7lbs 3oz and 19 inches long Time has gone by so quick that is for sure, and now here you are grown up and have grown up into such a awsome person Have been through your ups and downs but those are what make us stronger.. I hope you have a wonderful birthday and I know you are so glad to be home for it... Well I can't believe that my oldest is 19 but she is, and won't be long before Sami will be there, I feel very blessed and grateful for the two girls that I have in my life, and I would not want it any other way...(well most days anyways) So Nicole got to come home from Newfoundland for her Spring Break and she is pretty happy that she did, she was not looking forward to spending her 19th birthday alone in Newfoundland and well who can blame her, nothing better than being around all your friends and family. Well today we had our big Breakfast Blues at work, a breakfast that Stock puts on every year in the month of Feb and as always it was a big success, alot of work goes into this and there are many that don't realize it but it is always fun...I did'nt get to stay for the awards and yes I got one...wooooooooo hoooooooooo my safe driving award....I had to leave because Sami and I had to go to the passport office to get her passport for when she goes to Florida...well 5 hour wait.........I am like Sami.......this will take my mother of the year award away from me but I can't sit here for 5 hours so she told me to come home and she will call when she is done........gawd I love that kid.....LOL....so I am waiting to hear from her........5 hours, oh my oh my....you would think they would hire more people stay open longer hours, just until the brunt of this is done at least anyways...but oh no can't do that....oh well...glad I am not going anywhere....LOL..... Well life in the fast lane here has been pretty slow, the Daytona 500 was yesterday, and I cried, yes cried, because that race belonged to Mark Martin........like they said always the bridesmaid never the bride....oh well better luck next time I guess, but he raced a excellent race for sure..So the race season has began for Nascar, while we here in little ol Nova Scotia are still waiting to see a schedule for our racing season but this is nothing new for our series to take forever to get the schedule out...they are so frustrating at times....not sure what Kirk is going to do this race season he really has not said much....I know he enjoyed last year off so we will have to see...I know we both really missed going to the races and being with a team but what will be will be I guess...anyways I just hope they put out a schedule soon, did I already say that.....LOL.........well not much else going on, so going to close for now.....have a great week...and keep on smiling
2月4日 Having Some Fun, What Life is All AboutWell it seemed like it was a busy week but actually work was pretty quiet, the high school kids were writting exams so therefore most would go home early which made it nice for a couple days not to have so many on board.
Well Mommy and Baby are now at home, they arrived home today, we were over to see them last night before going out to the RV show, and Mr David was a little cranky but I guess he was still hungry, I think Trish has a big eater on her hands, but oh my gosh you know there is nothing better than laying back and having a brand new baby laying on your chest...I can't describe the feeling that it gives you but for anyone who has had kids knows what I am talking about...
Today we had a work bowling party, there were over 120 people there and it was alot of fun, the food the food, and I know it has been a really long time since I have bowled but it had to be all the dents and pieces out of the balls that made it that much worse, I got more in the gutter than went down the lane, and to think I use to play on a league, oh but that was many many moons ago...but it is alot of fun to go out and play something we should do more often that is for sure.
Well you know how they say you should never give up your dreams, well we don't and that is why we put ourselves through the shear torture of going out to the RV show......my oh my some of the trailers, they are not trailers anymore, they are homes that you can travel in...we went into one called the Day Dreamer, well that is actually what it is a dreamer, but it was on sale for only 99,999.00 we thought maybe we should have two of them since they were on sale....LOL...Kirk said not he did'nt want that one because it did'nt come with a hot tub or whirlpool tub....LOL....anyways they are very very nice and it would be very very nice to have one but we will look for one that is a little more less expensive...LOL...but you always have to dream if nothing else...
Well that is the extent of my week, so have a good one and hugs the ones you love, even the ones you don't....**smile**
2月1日 Meet David Gordon Smith
David Gordon Smith Born January 31/07 4:23am 8lbs 3oz
So I am driving along to go to my first morning pickup when at 6:35 Rita comes over the two way and say hey 416 Sue congratulations it's a boy, well we all new it was a boy but for some strange reason it felt good to hear her say it, well I am driving along, the tears are falling so many emotions going through me I can't explain them all, but the first one was is Trish ok, did she have to have c-section, how is the baby and of course how did Earl make out... And then it hit me, the heart started pounding, David Gordon, oh my gosh it seems like it has been so long since we have been able to call anyone David in the family I mean and they would respond..this seems hard, so all these feelings were rushing through, sadness but great happiness and and joy. I was over this morning to see them and it was very hard calling him David it just seemed different, but what a great way to remember a wonderful person, actually people, his middle name Gordon is after our uncle Gord who passed away two years ago.. He is soooooooooooo beautiful, big bright eyes, he had them opened up alot, and he is strong, and one important feature he is tall as Earl pointed out to me...LOL...so he has that from the Smith side not the Stevens side. I can't wait until they get to come home, hopefully maybe Sunday, but have to go for now but will have more to post soon...
1月27日 I always thought I worked well under pressureWell I have always thought that I worked well under pressure and most times I do, but not this time, I don't know where to start and my head is pounding thinking about it, we have so much stuff to do here at the house for it to be ready to be put on the market in say 3 weeks, the bathroom is still not done, so I guess being procrastanators is not a good thing, and did I even spell that right oh well don't care...LOL...so my goal today is to finish sanding the bathroom and tape it and paint it, Kirk left me instructions as to what needed to be done. My buddy Al is coming over today to help me out, thank god for friends because we are going to be needing them if we want to get this done. We are so looking forward to moving Kirk has visions for this new home and it is going to be fun but this part of the journey is just plain frustrating..oh well we get it done...
Man oh man it has been cold cold cold.......but I think I prefer that to snow snow snow....Poor Nick they have been dumped on over in Newfoundland but I noticed today that is only -1 instead of the -16 with windchill of -27 here...so enjoy the nice temps there Nick...
Well my youngest my baby Sami now is legal to drive on the road.........talk about stress....I think I might become a drinker....
 Kids growing up you would think it gets easier but it does'nt...again it will be something that will get easier with time I think...Baby news-----Trish was home on Sunday of last week, and told to stay on bed rest, and the update as of yesterday was that if she did not have the baby by Monday January 29 they will put her in on Tuesday and induce her, they also told her she might not be able to deliever natural that she might have to have a c-section.....the baby is now 9lbs...that is a big baby....so I am betting that we will have a new little boy very soon.......she is tired and cranky now and any of us that have had children know that after 9 month you do get a little cranky so she is entitled to be that way....
Well that is all for now folks, have to go and get started on that bathroom, I am sure I will feel much better when it is done.....oh yea I did'nt tell you that we have a family of birds living in the vent ducting or whatever you call it for the fan in the bathroom so I am going to go and have to be the very mean landlord and get them out....I just can't get the visions of that movie out of my head.....LOL....will be sure to update on the events of the day.......LOL 1月19日 Baby UpdateBaby News Update----So Trish is now in the hospital but she is not in labour just some things they are worried about the baby is right there waiting to come out and see the world, was just talking with her and they are keeping her for the weekend for sure and they really want her to be able to wait another week if she can, but hey that really is not her decision now is it....LOL...she is now 37 weeks and the docs just feel another week would be good but hey anytime would be ok too.....her blood pressure is up somewhat and she is really swelled up and all that good stuff.......oh the memories this brings back, I told her today that when I was pragnant with Nicole I was in the hospital for a week before I had her and I loved every minute of it so enjoy the pampering.....so maybe the next update will be that we have a new baby in the family...So until then, take care and have a good one 1月7日 Saying Good Bye Is HardWell today we seen Nick off at the airport, and I was thinking driving out well she will be back home next month for her break so it won't be too hard to say see you soon, WRONG.
Let me back track, she left a note before she went to bed to wake her at 8am her flight was leaving at 1 but we had to pick up her friend first so we had to leave home here by 10 well being the great ones that we are that really pay attention to detail...he he he...she gets up and says lets check on the net to see if the flight is on time or whatever so anyways we did and I said what flight are you on and she ran and got her paper and she told me oh my god, we have to leave now..........MY FLIGHT LEAVES AT 11.....oh my the race was on for everyone to get ready and of course we did'nt have time to pick up the friend who is actually pretty sick anyways so out to the airport we go get there in lots of time and Nick is trying to get in touch with her friend and finally she does and she comes back from talking to her, tears in the eyes hard well that is all it takes, so of course the waterworks begin........ya I know it is only a month but it is pretty heartbreaking sending someone you love somewhere they don't really want to be and now I just keeping thinking about her and how she is probably homesick already. I will be so glad to see April come when she is done and comes home to stay, and in Sept she will be starting at the Mount (hopefully) and then she can stay home here where she wants to be.........Gosh it is hard trying to be tough....LOL.
Well the weekend has come to an end and this coming week will be our first full week of being back to school, so now the count down begins for March Break and then once March Break is over the school year seems to go by so quick and then Summer Break....and people ask me why I love my job....
 because we have so much time off...it is great...Well that's all for now...have a great week everyone...hugs to all 1月2日 A New YearHappy New Year
Well another year has come and gone, alot happened in 2006, some good and some bad, but 2007 has come at a very good time for us, In 2006 I took it upon myself to seek some help in dealing with all the death that has seemed to invade my life. I attended 2 Grief and Bereavement Group sessions. From those session I have learned alot about grief, the number one thing I have learned is that grief comes in many forms not only in the form of death. Even though my wonderful brother passed away 10 years ago, many days it seemed like two days ago, the reason was that I never dealt with his death, I dealt with it the way people wanted me to, oh get over it, Get Over It, What the hell is this--Get Over it......some people don't realize that everyone grives in their own way and time, but get over it is not something that one does right away...you know the worst thing you can say to a person especially one that has been sick and passed on..those words "They Are In A Better Place" well I'm sorry but I thought they were in a better place when they are here with the people who love them...yes I admit that being sick is not a good way, there would be nothing better than if we could all live all our days healthy wealthy and wise and just go to sleep and pass on but that is not how it is in our world. I guess it was me being selfish and wanting David here reguardless of how sick he was, but I loved him and still love him very much.........So as time goes by yes it does get easier, I sit alot and think to myself, what would he be doing, what would he look like (still handsome I am sure), how he would be so proud of Hillary (his daughter) and Nicole and Sami my girls...I could only imagine the excitement he would have knowing that his baby sister is having a baby, and how proud he would be of her........I find myself tearing up thinking about this, but knowing deep inside my heart that David knows all of this anyways........and that he is always watching us and smiling. When I was attending group I learned alot about how losing other things in our lives affects us even when we don't realize that it is a loss, the loss of a pet, your kids moving on, even the loss of a job, divorce, etc....but a big one for me was when one of the ladies said that one of her big lossess was the loss of herself through depression..........**SMACK ME IN THE FACE** I thought OMG she so opened my eyes, I have been struggling with depression for almost 12 years, and when I sat and thought about it, she was right, that was a major loss for me, losing myself, well that night I decided I had to find myself and I am on the journey of doing that.......I have always felt that I have tried to go through life being a good person, and trying to always do the right thing, keep peace and all that...well I know I have not always done the right thing, I have not always been the nicest person, and you know what as hard as I try I am not always going to do the right thing all the time, but I am going to try, I have always wanted people to like me and I know that not everyone is going to like me but I have come to terms with that, I have removed myself from the negative people that were in my life because dam it they were just bringing me down and I want to be up up up, I know that there are so many good things that can happen in life for Kirk and I and the girls, and for some strange reason 2007 seems to be the choosen year to put everything behind us and start brand new...I want to surround ourselves with good friends and family, never mind with the ahhh we don't feel like going to visit or don't have time etc...things are going to be better and yes I know you are thinking "she is nuts" but you know what I am going to try my hardest to make things good even if that means writing a letter to someone to say I'm sorry, I have no problem in admitting my mistakes...I guess maybe I have seen so much death that I have learned that life is really way to short to hold a grudge, have hatered towards anyone, it is just not how things are suppose to be..so 2007 is going to the beginning of a new life for us.......I wish you all the best in the new year and hope great things for you all..........
I've Learned
I've Learned that no matter
what happens, or how bad it seems today
life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow
I've learned that you can tall a lot about a
person by the way he/she handles these three things
A rainy day, lost luggage, and tangles christmas lights
I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents
you'll miss them whey they're gone from your life
I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing
as making a life
I've learned that life sometimes give you a
second chance
I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a
catchers mitt on both hands
You need to be able to throw something back
I've learned that if you pursue happiness, it will elude you
but if you focus on your family, your friends, the needs of others
your work and doing the very best you can
happiness will find you
I've learned that whenever I decide something with a
open heart, I usually make the right decision
I've learned that even when I have pains
I do not have to be one
I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone
People love that human touch, holding hands, a warm hug,
or just a friendly pat on the back
I've learned that you should pass this on to someone you
care about, I just did
A Special Note
People might forget what you said
People might forget what you did
But people will never forget how you made them feel
12月26日 Wow What A DayWell Christmas has come and gone again for another year, we put so much into it and getting ready and in like 30 minutes it seems like it is all over....well not really over but you know what I mean....I was up at 6:30 and nobody else moved until around 9, oh to have little kids here just for christmas day...so finally they all awake and we do the stocking thing and then open the gifts, everyone was happy Nicole got her digital camera, and Sami her mp3 player and Kirk got his mitre saw and Suzie got a dvd player to hook up to the stereo upstairs so she can listen to her tunes........well I put the turkey in at about 7am and then Kirk made breakfast for us all and the day was going really great, Kirk and I went downstairs to watch talladaga nights and it was a stupid but funny movie, so anyways it was just getting over and I thought to myself oh gosh I don't feel too well, and then kirk said he did'nt feel too good either, and bam just like that the two of us are down for the count, see the stomach flu had gone through the house with the girls, and so Christmas day had to me the day that Kirk and I got it, oh my oh my, we started with the throwing up at around 1:30pm and stopped at about 11pm not nice I tell ya it was not nice at all, so needless to say we did'nt have our Christmas dinner
 , we have been told that we had the Norwalk Viris, well I was wishing it would walk out of our house...The girls decided that they really did'nt want to stick around for the all day and evening events so they took off to visit my sister and then mom and dad, and then they went to visit their Father and their Aunt, they were smart to leave I think......well I am hoping to get our dinner today, I think the only part of the flu that we have left is the aches and pains from using every muscle in your body even the ones you never knew existed...If anything good can come out of this it would be the fact that Kirk and I got it at the same time and now we can say it is over with...from what I have been reading about it, it lasts anywhere from 24-48 hours, so hopefully it is gone.....Well I sure hope everyone had a very nice Christmas and Santa was good to you all........oh my I think Tim Hortons is open I should go out and get a tea, I have already had one at home but Timmies is always nice.........you all have a great one...........and enjoy your family and friends at this time of year and every other day of the year............ 12月23日 Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas Everyone Well I am sure everyone is pretty much ready for the big guy...we are and it is nice to be able to sit down and relax for a bit...Can't wait for turkey day, yum yum...Well Christmas Eve it has always been tradition to go to mom and dad's but it is not looking good this year, this terrible stomach flu that is going around has hit yet another one of the fine family members in our household, Sami had it first and man oh man that girl was sick..........and Nicole has it.........so we are keeping our fingers crossed that she is feeling better and it only lasts the 24hours like it did with Sami...we certainly don't want to be spreading that around, especially to my sister Trish being in the condition of having a bun in the oven... Well it is nice having some time off from work, and it seems like once you go back in the New Year that the rest of the school years goes by pretty quick....so before we know it I will be off for the summer.......ahhhhh summer....we certainly can't complain about the weather here it has been awsome...but it would of been really nice to have a dusting of snow for Christmas but not this year oh well.......it is great for anyone travelling...we have a pretty busy week ahead of us so I am thankful I guess for the nice weather. Well going to run now, you all have a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year... Love and best wishes to all............. 12月15日 OMG ONLY 10 DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS...Hard to believe there are only 9 shopping days left, where has the time gone. Well lets see, we have been pretty busy with trying to get some things done around here and then christmas things to do...oh what is a girl suppose to do. Well like I have always said, if I don't have it by christmas day oh well we will just have to do without....
 Well it has been a little busy with things going on, Last Friday we had our Christmas Party for work and as you can tell from the pics there were not alot of people who ventured out this year...why you may ask, well again we had a little freak storm and it made for pretty messy roads and because our drivers come from a very big area most did not make it, but we had fun....Fun is all in what you make it anyways..we did a little bit of karoke Rita, Cindy and I did Good Bye Earl by the Dixie Chicks, Ron and Bob well they did Love Me Tender by Elvis, and Steve well he did Hotel California by the Eagles..............and the winner this year was...............Love Me Tender...............what is up with that.....
 ..they better look out for next year because the Chicks are going to kick their butts.............Well I went to the airport today to pick Nicole up, she is so excited to be home, well I don't think she has actually been home in the house for anymore than 1 hour....LOL..........we came home this morning, she dropped me off and picked up Sami, and then they drove down home to Hubbards because nanny being the great nanny and mom that she is, made homemade rolls today for Nicole's work party this weekend, and she made me a carrot cake...yummmmmm, and she made one of her great chocolate cakes too, oh my god I miss that women living with us
Well I do have alot of baking to do this weekend, I am making some gingerbread men for my kids on the bus so I counted all my kids and I have to make at least 160...........there will be some cookie dough flying high this weekend.....and Wednesday is our last day of school...
Well don't think there is anything else to report right now, so have a good weekend...oh gosh yes, we have Kirk's Christmas Party tomorrow night, and also have to go to Kendall & Krista's annual Christmas Party, and then next door to Jody's party, oh my god I will be partied out and then have to make all those gingerbread men..........will she make it...........stay tuned and I will let you know............. 12月5日 It's Beginning to Look Alot Like ChristmasHey there, well yesterday we had a pretty freak storm, and I can tell you I feel pretty darn lucky too, I just happened to take yesterday afternoon off to get some things done, and well the weather turned to havoc, it started snowing and my gosh it did'nt let up at all for the longest time and the school buses were out there getting the kids home, and I feel pretty lucky that I did'nt have to be out there in it, don't get me wrong I was worried about the kids because I did'nt know who was doing my run and I know that I would of been fine out there but for some reason I was'nt, some drivers still had kids on the bus at 6pm it was unbelievable how quick this all happened. One driver did'nt get home until around 8:30pm he was stuck on a street for over 4 hours waiting for a tow truck, but you know what, after everything was all said and done, there were no major problems other than time........and well as a bus driver, I drive with the Thought "We Drive To Arrive" no matter how long it takes you to get to where you are going...these drivers deserve a big pat on the back for all they went through yesterday in that crazy storm.
The kids were telling me today that they were pretty scarred, because they did'nt know if the spare driver knew the roads, (and I do so really bad back roads) but he did great and the students all got home safe and sound....
Well 10 days and Nicole will be home, we got the bathroom pretty much done..woooo hooooo....so just a few more things and then maybe just maybe we will get this house on the market....
Well my sister had her first bout with false labour..........not a good thing when you live like 45 minutes out of the city...but the baby is good he is about 4lbs now, and she still has 2 months left to go and this is when they grow the most...but he is in position and ready to go, just time now, and I guess they won't let the baby get to big because of her bleeding disorder that she has, (her blood does not clot) so they have been paying very close attention to her during the whole baby trip because of that so you never know we might have a new baby sooner than planned but that will be ok, as long as mom and baby are healthy...
Well my baby Sami finally got a job, she is working at Sobey's and so far she seems to be enjoying it...hope it continues, but she is getting a little on the testy side because she is getting tired, she has been working alot of hours, and this girl likes her sleep but she will like her paycheck too so she better get use to it...LOL....well that's all for now, have a good one.... 11月27日 What A Wonderful Weekend
Baby Shower Day
Well what a great weekend here at the ok corral, Friday night took it easy, and on Sat was out doing a little shopping with a co-worker Dee, the stores were not too bad all things considered, and what makes shopping even worse for me is that I hate it, I was not born to shop that is for sure...I can't stand having to try everything on, and the line ups etc.......but the day was good, it was just nice to go out and enjoy time with your friends...On Sat night we all went out to a birthday party held at Dooleys for a fellow co-worker who was turning 65, well my gosh I have never been to a party where it was so well thought out and put together and fun, fun, fun, these mature (not older) folks know how to have a good time, and a good time we did have.........and I can't believe I forgot to take my camera........ugggggg......
Well Sunday was the Baby Shower for my sister Trish, who by the way is getting very big, and so we have been told it is a boy.......and the name they have choosen is David, how very fitting...........she received alot of nice stuff, my daughter Nicole sent her home a nice Winnie The Pooh Diaper Bag, and Nick had to make sure that it was manly enough for Earl to carry, and it passed, all because Winnie the Pooh is manly....Earl loves Winnie The Pooh the baby's room is so nicely done, and with the theme of...lets all say it together "WINNIE THE POOH"
These two are going to be such wonderful awsome parents and we can't wait for this baby to come into the world, he is due around the 2nd of Feb so things are getting really exciting now for sure........Well today is a very easy day at work we just have the High School Runs no school for the Elementry or Jr High, makes for a quick day...........and before we know it we will be on Christmas Break, that is hard to believe especially with this wonderful weather we are having.........I won't rub it in too bad to my friend in BC who is not enjoying her weather too much.....eh Tina.............well going to go for now...........have a great weekend everyone............
11月23日 If I Had My Life To Live Over
If I had My Life To Live Over
By Nadine Stair and Elizabeth Lucas
I'd dare to make more mistakes next time, I'd relax, I would limber up, I would be sillier than I have been this trip, I would take fewer things seriously, I would take more chances, I would take more trips, I would climb more mountains, I would swim more rivers, I would eat more ice cream and less beans, I would perhaps have more actual troubles, but fewer imaginary ones, You see, I am one of those people who live sensibly and sanely hour after hour, day after day, Oh, I've had my moments, If I had it to do over again, I have more of them, In fact, I 'd try to have nothing else, Just moments one after another, instead of living so many years ahead of each day, I've been one of those person who never goes anywhere without a thermometer, a hot water bottle, a raincoat, and a parachute, If I could do it again, I would travel lighter than I have, If I had my life to live over, I would start barefoot earlier in the spring and stay that way later in the fall, I would go to more dances, I would ride more merry - go - rounds
I would pick more daisies.......
11月17日 Helloooooooo Out ThereWell gosh time goes pretty quick when you are doing stuff and you don't find you have the time or sometimes even the energy to sit and write in the blog.........Shame on me......well things here on the homefront have been pretty good, time is clicking by and before we know it Nicole will be home and Christmas will be here and god only knows what else....
Well had to go to Fredericton last weekend my cousin Colleen and I drove up, see I have a aunt that lives up there that is not just your ordinary Aunt she is a very special lady who was like my second mother all through my life, has always been there for the good the bad and the ugly in my life...well she took sick, and came very close to death when her large intestine exploded pretty much and things were not good there for a bit, but I am very happy to say that she is home now, and things are looking better, she has a long road ahead of her but she is a very very strong lady and has the help of a very supportive family....I am so glad that things went right for a change I know she might not feel right at the moment but that is because her life has changed a huge amount but it is all for the better....Can't wait until I can go back up again and see her....Love you Ena and wishing you a very speedy recovery
Well tomorrow we are going to be tackling 2 bedrooms tearing up the carpet and putting down some hardwood flooring, we are going to be putting the house up for sale, and so we have some things that need to get done..............so I am going to look at this as another fun adventure in our lives............for the better I am sure..................
Well for the last 8 weeks I have been attending a group once a week for Grief and Bereavement...........this is my second time around for this group and that is because I felt that there was more that I needed to figure out so that I could start going in the right direction in my life, and to try and make things better for the people that I love..........I have figured a few things out and there are many more things I need to figure out for sure but I am going in the right direction..............Every week we cover a different topic about grief and etc.........and did you all know that Grief comes in many forms, not just the loss of a loved one..........I for one never really looked at it like that.........I thought that Grief was for death but it is not.........it comes in the form of Divorce, The loss of a job, just change in your life, etc..........
Last night we talked about people who have lost loved ones through Suicide, oh my god, were my eyes opened up.......we as humans can be very closed minded about things and this is one thing that we have a very hard time with because of the stigma around it..........people don't want to talk about it........push it under the carpet it might just go away............we as a nation have to wake up and see what is causing so many issues for our children and not just our children our family and friends.......I will never again push aside the thought that I can't help someone if anyone ever even mentions the thought of suicide...........if they are thinking it, then they need someone to talk to, and you know what, it is not always the professional that can help a person, most times it is us the ordinary joe that can help, may not be with words but just the thought that someone knows that someone else does care...........Pretty deep topic I know, but one that we should all be aware of.
Here is something that was read to us last night...........Hope you enjoy, it did not really have anything to do with the topic we were covering last night, but I wanted to share it with you........
The Shoes
My alarm went off, It was Sunday again, I was sleepy and tired, My one day to sleep in
But the guilt I would feel, so I'd go and I'd pray, I got there and sat in a pew just in time
Bowing my head in prayer, As I closed my eyes, I saw the shoe of the man next to me Touching my own, I sighed
With plenty of room on either side, I thought "Why must out soles touch?", It bothered me, his shoe touching mine, but it did'nt bother him much.
A Prayer began "Our Father", I thought "This man with the shoes has no pride" They're dusty, worn and scratched Even worse there are holes on the side.
Thank you for blessings, the prayer went on, the shoe man said a quiet Amen, I tried to focus on the prayer, but my thoughts were on his shoes again.
Aren't we suppose to look our best, when walking through that door? Well this certainly isn't it, I thought, Glancing toward the floor.
Then the prayer was ended and the songs of praise began, the shoe man was certainly loud, sounding proud as he sang, his voice lifed the rafters, his hands were raised high, the lord could surely hear the shoe man's voice from the sky
It was time for the offering and what I threw in was steep, I watched as the shoe man reached into his pockets so deep, I saw what was pulled out, what the shoe man put in, then I heard a soft clink as when sliver hits tin
The sermon really bored me, to tears, and that's no lie, it was the same for the shoe man, for tears fell from his eyes. At the end of the service as is the custom here, we must greet new visitors and show them good cheer.
But I felt moved somehow, and wanted to meet shoe man, so after the closing prayer, I reached over and shook his hand, he was old and his skin was dark, and his hair was truly a mess but I thanked him for coming for being our guest
He said my names Charlie, I'm glad to meet you my friend, there were tears in his eyes but he had a large wide grin
Let me explain he said wiping tears from his eyes, I've been coming here for months and your the first to say Hi, I know that my appearance is not like all the rest, but I really do try to always look my best
I always clean and polish my shoes, before my very long walk but by the time I get here they're dirty and dusty like chalk, My heart filled with pain and I swallowed to hide my tears as I continued to apologize for daring to sit so near.
He said When I get here, I know I must look a sight, but I thought if I could touch you then maybe our souls might unite, I was silent for a moment knowing whatever was said, would pale in comparison, I spoke from my heart, not my head
Oh you've touched me, I said, and taught me in part, that the best of any man is what is found in his heart, the rest, I thought this shoe man will never know, like just how thankful I really am, that his dirty old shoe touched my soul...........Author Unknown
Again sometimes all it takes to open up our eyes, is the tale of two people........well that is all for now, and hope you have a great weekend 11月4日 It Sure Has Been AwhileWell it sure has been a long time since I have written anything on here, maybe now with winter coming I will type more, not that anything too exciting will be going on but that is ok..........so I have been on my new bus route for a couple weeks now and again I have to say I have lucked out with the kids, these are good ones don't cause me too much stress so that is a very good thing because when I wake up in the morning I really don't dread going to work....I had to talk to the high school kids yesterday and explain to them that I was born to have a maid not be one and could they refrain from throwing their garbage on the floor and they were really cool with that so when my day ended the bus was still pretty clean I will not be able to get through to all of them but it is going in the right direction...So then I had to talk to them about the language they use.........I told them I really can't stand the "F" word and if they would not could they please stop using it or if they felt they needed to use it just do it so I don't hear it....LOL....and again they were ok with it..........I guess it is a resepct thing I respect them and therefore they respect me, so it is all pretty good........
Oh my gosh I can't believe that November is here already and soon Christmas will be here. You know I love Christmas not the fact that you receive presents (but that is a nice part of it) but I enjoy the fact that most people are in such a different type of mood than normal, just a really different feeling in the air just like the songs says I guess....
Well not much else going on, Nicole will be home for Christmas that is something to look forward to for sure...She is counting the days, I think as of today it is 41 days........what a girl.............
Well going to run for now, have a great one and hug the ones you love.................. 10月1日 Where does the time go Happy Birthday KirkyCan't believe it has been so long since I have written in the blog, one would almost think I might have a life...
 Well let me see if I can remember anything that might be a little bit interesting or funny since I have written, well one day I was driving the Jr & High School kids home and we were getting ready to come through Lake Echo where the speed limit is 80 clicks I would of been going about 70 and out of the woods comes this bear, yes a bear, and it was a baby bear, ran right out in front of me, I slammed on my brakes and the kids were yelling, SUEEEEEEEEE what are you doing, and the ones in the front seen it but the kids in the back could'nt and I yelled I almost hit a bear, a baby bear at that...well I thought I was going to have a heart attack, and good thing I did'nt hit it, because chances are pretty good that mama bear was not too far away....well that was pretty exciting...
Well construction let me tell you, I have my issues with construction these days...now all summer they could of been doing this work but noooooooooooooo we will wait until the kids are back in school and make life hell for their trip to and from school.........well anyone that really knows me knows that I hate to be late for anything, if I have nothing else going for me being on time is one thing I do have in my favor well not these last two weeks I sure have'nt as far as getting my students to school and getting them home, well my run in the morning is not too bad but coming home in the afternoon my last drop off for my jr&high school kids have been 45 minutes late, because of construction, so anyways on Friday I was informed of this road that I could take well it would not even be classified as a road but it was useable...lol and the kids loved it, and we actually got home on time almost, just only about 5 minutes behind schedule...but it was an adventure....and we will probably have to use it again this coming week.
Well I applied for a new run, not sure why, but really thought there was no way I would get it because I assumed someone else with more senority(spelling) would apply and get it...well I found out on Friday that I got the new run, and I am now between two worlds because I have a really good relationship with my students and I am one to live by the rule of thumb if it ain't broke don't fix it....but for some reason I applied for this one and now I have to decide if I want it or not...I am going to take it and I have some time to tell my students and I will cry but I will carry on like the trooper I am....I have carried on quite a few times in my life and I am sure I will have to carry on many more times...LOL
Well my sister is getting pretty big now, believe it or not the baby will be here before we know it. Can't wait, it sure will be nice to have a little one around to spoil....
Well that's all for now folks, so have a great week...
Suz 9月14日 Almost Friday...WOOOO HOOOOWell it is almost Friday....been a hectic week, but we always manage to get through them...Well Kirk is in Newfoundland racing with Mike MacKenzie in the TARGA NEWFOUNDLAND....I cant tell you too much about this race because I don't understand anything about how it is timed or scored or whatever it is they do..
 but I do know that they have been having alot of problems with the car, so therefore it has put them back aways in position last I was talking to Kirk they were running in like 37th but he is having a ball and that is all that really matters...I myself have never been to the rock, and this is Kirk's first time and he said it is beautiful.....and now that Nick is over there in school maybe I will have to visit...My gosh something else about that shooting in Montreal, what is wrong with people these days, I know there is alot of stressess in life but does it really have to come down to doing a terrible act like that....My thoughts certainly go out to all...
The weather has been really nice a little chilly in the morning but that is ok, I can handle it...and Nick was telling me that yesterday the rain the rain in Newfoundland was something else, she said when she was walking through the tunnel to get to the university it sounded like major hail, she said you could'nt even use the umbrella it did'nt make any differance....
Well that's all for now, have a good one one..... 9月9日 WOW WHAT A WEEKWow what a week it has been, had a get together here at the house last Sunday with some of the folks from work, it was alot of fun there had to be 20 people all trying to sit in my kitchen, hey we are maritimers and we love kitchen parties...it was a fun time to have everyone here and I cooked homemade fish and chips for all....well all need a good time before venturing back to work and getting all geared up for the students.
Well needless to say Tuesdays startup meeting went pretty smooth all things considered...imagine having 200 plus people all trying to find the same thing...LOL but things were pretty organized this year and it did'nt go to bad...startup is always hectic because everyone need to get their bus if they have not already picked them up and then they are looking for this and that and and having to do the scratch and dent with other drivers on their buses just to make sure nothing happened to them over the summer, especially since most of the fleet are all brand new which is a real treat....no more standards and old clunkers....
Wednesday first day of school-----Well the day started out well, I only had 2 new primaries on my morning run and only one of them got on with the look of fear and the tear streaming down her face...ohhhhhhh I said Good Morning and she just looked at me, and said Good Morning I asked her name and she told me and then I said I am Sue your bus driver and you are going to have so much fun at school today, and she looked at me and smiled, and so I told her to sit with the other little girl who was new and things went well she started talking to me on the way and when she got off the bus she looked at me and said Bye Sue, see you tomorrow with a smile on her face, that is what I love about my job.
The afternoon run well that was another story, my first school in the afternoon was 30 minutes late getting the kids organized so with that said I knew that my afternoon was going to be a long one and long it was....but oh my gosh nothing compared to what some of the other drivers had gone through....picked up my Jr high and High School kids and I was wayyyyyyyyy overloaded so had to get the spare bus to help me out...well as of Friday that spare bus was still taking alot of my kids, so that will have to get fixed up...Alot of students have moved up this year that is why there is such an overflow...but things will improve....So all in all the First couple days of school went not too bad, just really hectic...Monday will start a whole new week.
Well my daughter has spent her first week in Newfoundland, well I can tell you that the first couple days were pretty hard on her and heartbreaking on me. Of course she landed there on the long weekend, not knowing anyone at all and then come to find out that the other girl that was suppose to be staying at the house with her was not coming this leaving Nick there alone pretty much, well she might as well have been in a different country...I can only imagine how alone she felt, but she has made it through, and has started classes, but she is still finding it hard being away from home. I can tell you this much there is nothing worse than talking with your child on the phone and you feel so helpless and thinking there is nothing you can do to help, my heart just felt like it was being ripped out of me and all I wanted to do was to be able to reach out and give her a great big hug....And as the days have gone by things have gotten a little easier for her and for me. She has been looking forward to seeing Kirk today because he is over there for the week he is going to be racing in the Targa Newfoundland with Mike MacKenzie and it starts in St. John's and ends there so she has had something to look forward to, so they are going to meet up and spend the day and evening together..Nick has always been the one who has absoulutly no interest in racing but she will today...LOL...I sent the camera with Kirk so I am hoping to have some good pictures....well maybe not....LOL....
Anyways that ends my blog for now, you all have a great weekend and my gosh :
HUG THE ONES YOU LOVE, EVEN THE ONES YOU DON'T 8月28日 It is finally hitting meWell yesterday we had a family get together for Nicole, and it is finally
hitting me that she is leaving home. We had a great day down home
it is always so nice to see everyone, and have some good laughs and
enjoy everyone's company. Gosh it seems like this family lately has
always been getting together for sad things like death....so yesterday
was a welcomed day to be sending Nicole off on her new adventures
in life....I find myself thinking and reflecting on alot of things as she is getting
ready to leave, like where did 18 years go, even though there
were days when I would find myself saying, I will be glad when you move out
and learn about life, (of course not meaning it) and now here that day is. Nicole
was always my book kid, always had her face in a book, did'nt matter what we were
doing or where we were going, she would have a book, I remember Kirk would be
joking around with her telling her Nicole don't ever read and drive....he he he....and
Nicole still has books all around her........not a bad thing at all............I can't help but
think how PROUD her UNCLE DAVID would be of her, his nickle that is what he used to
call her.........I am sure he is beaming as much as I am..........I am a very proud mom
maybe more so because things in our life have never really been that easy, I have put my
two girls through alot with them having to deal with a mother that would be depressed for
days on end, and relationships well they have been through a couple of them with me, and
this last one that we have been in for the last 8 years even through the rocky periods has
been the best.......Kirk has always accepted Nicole and Sami just like they were his own and
he has been a huge support for them both, and yes they are now teenagers and don't look at
life the way we all do, but you know what they will be singing that song someday called
"The dad you did'nt have to be"Kirk is just as proud of Nicole as any dad would be, and again that
is a good thing..........next will be Sami and if she stays on the path she wants to take she is going
to become a CHEF..........yummy meals coming up I hope......Nicole never got into the racing thing
with Kirk, but they had other things to talk about, and every once in awhile I would be upstairs doing
something and I could hear that hearty laugh of Nicoles coming from downstairs and it would be her
and Kirk talking and laughing about something..........Well it is hard for the tears not to come and that
is from being so proud and thinking just a little, I must of did something right...........I guess I will take
a little bit of credit............So this ending my little speel I just want Nicole to know that we as a family
are so very very proud of you........GOOD LUCK.................and LOVE YOU |
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